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The sky was cloudy again, by the time I got out of the house.

Not that I particularly cared, I just wanted to get out for a while.

Having coped myself in for four days was more than a little crazy for me.

Not to mention my parents went a little crazy.

"A girlfriend? He NEVER MENTIONED ANYTHING ABOUT A GIRLFRIEND?"

"I'm only guessing darling, that might not be the truth."

"Well whatever it is, the girl was never fit for my honey bunny!"

"Yes dear, but I said that it might not actually be a girl problem.."

"I know! And I"M saying that that girl will never fit my KAEDE!"

"But..."

"SHE WILL NEVER FIT MY KAEDE I TELL YOU! "

"...yes dear.."

I never once thought that my dad would have suspected.

But he was always the more perceptive one.

A trait I'm afraid I didn't get.

Okay maybe I have some perception on court.

But in other things, I'm just so screwed.

Or rather, I would say, perception is one thing.

Obsession is another thing altogether.

*Some famous character from some famous book once said something about we only perceive what we want to see or something like that..

To put it more simply, I only saw, what I wanted to see.

And there wasn't much to see in the first place.

Which makes me feel like crying all over again.

Most people, start to fall in love when both parties are mutually attracted to each other.

And in other words, it takes two to tango.

How I ended up this lovesick , [as my cousins would describe it when we have gatherings and they sit round a table and gossip I sit there mostly because I always loved a good story and mostly because I'm the only boy in the entire family. ] , is entirely due to my own tango.

I told you I was screwed.

I mean you can't like someone, who feels no attraction towards you at all.

How am I so sure I like that person?

Hmm...I guess its because, I think about him, all day long.

IT makes me happy, to think about him.

You might say that that's not strong evidence of liking someone.

But to me, it is.

I have never, in my entire life, thought of someone, whilst I was playing basketball.

Yup, I even thought of him whilst I was playing in court.

I mean, that's gotta be serious right?

Or at least, I think its serious.

Then there's this physical reaction towards him.

The furious heart beating, the butterflies in stomach, the embarass myself in front of him syndrome.

Does that make me gay?

I guess it does..

I mean, I don't get all flushed up with any guy.

Only for him.

ANd then I guess there's always the possibility that these , all these, are just hormornes.

Which is why, I have decided....nooooot to tell him...yet.

ACtually I don't know yet.

What do you do in situations like these?

I don't want to do it the tv way, cause that just makes my life boring.

I don't actually have that many friends to ask for advice for.

My mum would flip.

And my dad...well, my dad already sort of talked to me about it.

He came into my room the second day I locked myself up.

He said "Son, Do you know how people fall in love?"

*"Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, which act similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain's pleasure center and leading to side-effects such as an increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years."

And then before leaving me wide eyed and shocked, he pats me on the back and says, "You could try waiting for three years"

That means, three years of not meeting him, of not seeing him, of not having to do anything with him.

Then perhaps, my hormornes will let me forget him.

mmmm...three years..

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*Source taken from : Julius Caesar ,
"Indeed, it is a strange disposed time:But men may construe things after their fashion,Clean from the purpose of the things themselves."
Cicero, scene iii
*source taken from : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love#Biology_of_love

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