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Weather conditions are blah blah blah and blah.

Perfect for lazing around. *grin*

then again lazing around can only take so long before it gets utterly BORING

But then again, everything bores me nowadays..

Even food..

Not right now though, right now i'm craving kfc, carl's junior and mos burger and , oh, ice cream.

Preferably thick cold very very cold vanilla ice cream.

Betcha thought i was gonna say chocolate right?

nope. I had my serving yesterday. LoL.

Plus have chocolate cake at home,therefore have ample amount of chocolate.

not to mention the chocolate pile in the fridge that my uncle gave..

yup..definitely have ample amount of chocolate.

dammit really craving vanilla right now.

Current favourite song is still sugababes- push the button..

Mostly because heidi looks reallllly good in the mv..

Wahahha..

Mum's sick.

Now if you ever had one of your parent's sick you would probably know how I feel now.

And if you don't, lemme tell you its a very scary feeling

Especially if you're an and i quote " IDOT" like me.

You see the thing about me is that given the time and energy, I tend to melodramatize the issue.

Not that it takes much energy to dramatize stuff in my mind lol.

But then again, my brain's a whole blank mass..

Nothing but.thoughts of when i can go out and spend my father's money.

And oh, eat more food.

LoL.

Speaking of which, i really shouldn't because I have been called a bowling ball.

No doubt I neglect to notice it, but my new pair of pants really is getting tight.

REally now..you think i'd be more sensible and cut down and do push ups or something..

But as turtle says and i quote "inertia" has settled in me.

I can't help it.

No really i can help it and i really should.

But only until i really see the urgency of slimming down.

From the way i see it, what for?

I don't have a target boytoy anymore..

You'd think that after years of wanting to have a target boytoy and finally having a target boytoy and finally realizing that its stupid to have a target boytoy, I'd actually enjoy the freedom i have now.

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Am feeling , if i may be rather frank, fuckin lost.

I blame the media

ANd myself for watchin and reading too many romance novels and tv stuff..

What ever tv stuff may be.

Its media PROPAGANDA I TELL YOU!!

Honestly, as much as I preach freedom, I gotta have some sort of aim right?

Obviously not really la..but its not a nice feeling, feeling lost i mean.

Was blown away by my colleague's speech of ambition yesterday.

She wanted to go overseas and study and get a good job.

Then by getting a good job, she'll probably have enough money before she's thirty to open her own shop.

SEE!

This is what i call aiming.

Not over ambitious.

But aiming.

A little direction wouldn't hurt.

Especially one that doesn't involve , "i'll go where ever he goes"

Gosh I hate those type of people.

Not that there's a right to hate them la..

after all if i had one of those boytoys, i'd actually go where ever he goes.

Stupid right?

kinda especially since its so difficult to just start all over again.

Its like being given something special, naturally when you have something special you feel special.

And then after a while you get so used to it that when you lose it you feel lost.

See, don't come and say i don't understand these sort of things.

No really i don't understand these sort of things.

I'm really just telling you guys crap.

And this has probably been the crappiest post I've ever posted.

Just look at it.

Its nothing but boytoys , food, worrying over sick parent and lazing.

Do you see any comment about what's the latest on newsweek?

Nope.

Obviously by now you should realize that I am actually a fat dumb brunette.

I know that doesn't sound right, but I really don't have blond hair.

As much as I'd like to make it sound right, honesty really is essential when insulting oneself.

Right..that's all the crap in me now.. and i better stop now before i start repeating crap.

Tata~

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good. :D ~
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