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Am having irritating flashes these days.

Okay, i realized that didn't make sense at all.

To make it simple, its moody season again.

I don't understand why i get moody.

I just do.

And that in itself, annoys the hell out of me.

Take for example ,

Me , myself, getting angry just because my mum told me that leaving the curtains pulled would have knocked her plants over.

There are two points to this:

1. She was right.
2. I got irrationally irritated after that.

Its funny how and when my anger wants to show itself.

Of course, writing this down, doesn't mean i'll really have any change.

lol, you're probably like thinking like " THEN WHY THE HELL ARE YOU BLOGGIN ABOUT THIS?!"

And that's another thing about me.

I say i'l change.

And ...I don't.

But at least, at the very least, i am conscious of it for a period of time.
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Which is just the thing i think that gets me moody.

Like how, when someone finally pointed out "Man, you get bullied so easily"

Maybe ALL OF YOU OUT THERE, knows i get bullied very easily, I honestly don't know.

But, I DO KNOW I GET BULLIED VERY EASILY.

The fact that i'm AWARE OF IT and the fact that IT STILL HAPPENS and WHENEVER IT HAPPENS, pisses me off.

Okay maybe that was wrongly put.

Its the fact that i don't do anything about it that pisses me off because i haven't been able to think a way out of this.

This is the sequence in which i will think:


1. The fact that i get bullied easily is because, i get scared very easily.

2. I get scared very easily because I'm afraid to do or say something, that will become permanent.

1. Like what if what i said was wrong?
2. What if i did something to provoke this?

3. Which then results in me just hiding away from the chaos that scares me.



I suppose that gets me moody.


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And when i can't hide it anymore, there will be sudden outbursts of screaming and irritation.

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IT ISN"T BLOODY LOGICAL!!!!

BAH!

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Okay so bloggin about this is making me even more irritated.

@%&#$%&*^$&!@#$%!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good. :D ~
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